June 9th 2000Hi, my name is Dani I am 16 years old and I live in California.
My mother gave me this diary so I can write down how I feel
because I have a hard time showing how or telling people how I feel.It was really kind of her to time of me for once... anyways I am feeling ok today nothing new or exciting happened today just a plan old day.There is nothing really much to say so im just going to leave it at that ill update this later if anything new happens.. bye
June 20th 2000So I got picked on at school today because I looked different from them... what is so different about me.. I talked to my mom about this and she said t just ignore it.. I dont think that will help at all I might tell a teacher about this tomorrow.. maybe.. but besides that nothing else happened today.. wellBesides me having a nightmare yesterday.. it looked so.. real.. maybe im just over thinking it..But that is all for today bye.
June 23rd 2000Today was pretty ruff I got bully once again.. and I also got beat up pretty good and now my whole body hurts.. I tried telling a teacher but.. she didnt do anything she also told me to just ignore it.. how it that going to help me at all they are just going to keep picking on me because I wont do anything back to them they just want a reacting out off me.. GOD I HATE PEOPLE SO MUCH!!!
July 4th 2000Well today is the 4th of july and it didnt go so well... because one of the kids also lit my hair on fire.. lucky my dad stopped them before they got the chance to... I love my dad he is the only one who cares about me.. to day he is always at work so im stuck at home with my mom.. but over all today was ok we got to see some pretty fireworksThat's all for today goodbye.
July 20th 2000It's almost the end of the month.. and nothing new has happened well besides these nightmares I keep having.. they keep getting worse and worse every think I go to sleep it's like they wont go away no matter how hard I try they wont leave.. I think there is something wrong with me... I feel sick to my stomach..
August 1st 2000These nightmares keep getting worse and they are getting so real to the point if I don't know if im dreaming or not.. maybe im dreaming right know and I dont know it... oh god.. I don't feel so good...
August 2nd 2000I just had to go to the hospital because I threw up blood... I have no idea what is wrong with me... maybe those kids were right.. maybe I am different... these nightmares... the throwing up blood.. am I.. a monster..
August 3rd 2000I can't do this anymore I think im going insane... I hear voices now... the nightmares.. they are coming to life and I cant stop it... oh god.. the voices... they are getting louder.. why wont it go away please make it stop please stop please stop please stop please stop please make it go away make it go away make it go away make it go away..
August 4th 2000I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE I SEE THEM I SEE THEM THEY VOICE WONT STOP THEY WONT GO AWAY THEY WONT LEAVE ME ALONE WHAT DO THEY WANT FROM ME PLEASE JUST GO AWAY MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP GOD WHY WHY ME THEY WONT STOP SPEAKING TO ME THEY WONT LEAVE GOD HELP ME PLEASE JUST MAKE THEM GO AWAY I HATE THIS EVERY THING IS SO DARK AND SCRAY I HATE IT I HATE IT PLEASE SOMEONE SAVE ME SAVE ME FROM THEM!!
August 10th 2000Its so odd that we are the same age but he is so short its so... different?.. He is a lot smaller then me but he is also 16? So weird..After I tried to walk away from the kid next door he started to hug my arm? I have no idea what his deal was, but I was able to get his name his name was Ghost. Pretty odd name if i say so myself. But Ghost was pretty... clingy in my opinion..